Holding me beautifully
When my happy days turned
To the darkest black obsidian
Cut and bleeding from the deepest of pain
The sisters of fate washed up on my shore
And hungrily stole away with them
My partner, my best friend and our 3 children
All five of you now lost and gone forever
Into the shadowy depths
Of the ocean of my greatest grief
I could hardly breathe
The waves of emotion picked me up
And threw me
To its very brooding depths
Battering me
Beyond anything I had ever known
I was left like an abandoned shipwreck
With nothing but barnacled memories
Of hopes, and dreams that once were
The faded birthday flowers
The baby’s much loved dummy
Kept in that velvet lined box
Each time opened
My heart broke again
And the salty tears flowed
Yet you held me
In the intimacy of my feelings
You encouraged me, to keep living
When I clutched for the abyss of nothingness
And stared longingly into the void
You shared, your darkest moments
Your words reeled me back from the edge
And now, its nine years on
I reach out once more, I need you
I want to make love to you for the first time ever
Show you more than my words on a page
Thoughts of you have swirled in the recesses of my mind
Of a time, a moment, stolen kisses and caresses
For too long, now is our time
Today you are holding me again
Whilst I write here
The tears and words flow freely again
As they always do
Yet through the years and today’s tears
I find my way back to you
Twists of fate lead the way
I swim into the safety of your arms
Wrapped in your soft caresses
You know my deepest secrets
Your heart and my heart
Understand like no other
I will be your secret love
Our bodies finally entwined
We will dance in the dark
Lips sealed in infinite secrecy
I will dance your slow dance
Our music will flow, like the musicians of old
I will play your body like a fine instrument
I will nurture and hold your precious heart
Whispering love poetry into your very soul
From dusk till dawn, till this spell is broken
~ © Astarté Earthwise
Astarté Earthwise 